Joyanna Adams

The Mother Demon: Laconic Sinner

Nobody Knows

I did something yesterday that every Youtube advisor on  “How to control yourself when someone attacks you.” went right out the door, into the street, and up into my crabapple tree.

Yes, my mother demon came out. And…it was about religion. Even after all the lessons I have learned about “Treat your neighbor as you would want to treat yourself.” I went into “Nope, not taking this… mode.”

I’m sorry, I lost it.

Let me set up the story. I have neighbors, very religious neighbors. He has his own church, a preacher,  and the wife is his biblical carbon copy. I have always respected them, and yet, no matter how hard I tried, there was a tension underneath their acceptance of me.

Here’s a fact: All Religions…can produce: Guilt. I am feeling sort of guilty and bad today, because I just told off my preacher neighbor. I don’t know WHAT got into me. Well, I do actually: It was my motherly instinct. After all these years, it’s still there.

My neighbor and his wife are of the Christian religion– where they go in and out every single day by “THE WORD.” And the ONLY word is their Bible. To them Jesus IS THE God, and if you don’t think so, then you are a sinner, and will go to hell. They believe in the physical reality of hell and heaven. Period. I see stars, they see…Jesus in the clouds. And we have had discussions about the subject of “God.” Jesus IS God, they declare.  Okay. That’s what they believe, and I respect them for having that belief. They will even get out the Bible and show you a passage where it says, “He IS god.” Jesus that is.

Now, I was raised a Methodist. I have read the Bible cover to cover three times in my life.  I even suffered through the genealogy of Jehovah begot Micah, begot Hezekiah, begot Zechariah, begot…well you know those parts. It was like reading what somebody had for lunch on Facebook. I think I had to take a LOT of breaks in those sections.  

“OMG I’m here again. I better go get something to eat.” (arsenic?)

Anyway, what really set me off is they think I’m some kind of infidel, because I said that the  Bible said, and If I recalled it right, and  I remembered it right,  that Jesus was the Son of God…And he sent his only son. Right?

Father, Son and the Holy Ghost, right? Even the Catholics cross themselves as if the demon will strike them down if they don’t.

It’s semantics, I don’t care. But here’s what happened: I pissed them off. Really, Okay, I stayed calm….BUT– When they started insisting that newborn babies are BORN sinners? And all children sin against their parents…and started talking about how their kids talk back to them…their own kids were devils, sinners…condemning their kids to hell, I said to them, laughing, (Something they tell you NOT to do.) “So, YOU never talked back to your parents?”

Oh boy. That did it. I thought the preacher was going to jump out of his holy pants, and light my big bush on my driveway on fire, and he just had a five star bypass heart surgery.

I started laughing. He was waving around, jumping up and down, and I turned to his wife and said, “Is this how he is when he preaches?…So entertaining!”

I know, I know, smart ass. Come on, it was funny.

Well, this preacher would never look me in the eye when he talked to me…EVER. AND I knew that he thought I was some kind of whore, or devil or whatever and I told him it hurt my feelings when he would not look me in the eyes when he talked, expecting him to at least look at me…and say “Oh sorry.” But….he….said….nothing.

Well, strike one was all the times they treated me like an “infidel sinner.” But strike two?

Calling newborn babies dirty sinners.

Whoa. “No, newborn babies are God’s very essence of purity, and innocent of sin when they are born. How CAN you even think that? I disagree.” Sorry.

It’s my Nobody Opinion, and I said it. This GODLESS creature that stood before them soiling the very house that we all were standing in? I was unworthy of their kindness.

Yeah, I kind of lost it, I told them that I had “God” save my life many times in my life, to prove to them that ONE: I believe in something…I call God, and TWO: I wasn’t the horrible person infidel that was going to hell as they were predicting.

AND ALL children are not sinners!!! Babies never.

Logically, I see nothing different from these poor people or the many Muslims who have the same belief: If YOU do not believe in THEIR god, you are damned. Infidel.

What makes them any better than the Muslims that preach it? You are not of OUR Christian or Muslim tribe? Well, then, it’s been over 4,000 years…let’s fight! Bring it on.

So, yeah, I blew it. I lost it. And I feel bad about it. But when people who are adults attack the babies?…I’m sorry. Attack me if you want…but the innocent? Come on. Yeah, the mother in me came roaring out.

Forgive me oh you guru’s on Youtube. I lost it.

And I would do that for ANY kid. Children are God’s most precious gift, just the fact that they survive in the womb is a miracle… And yes, we do need more of them.

I’m all for religion. Religions of all countries have helped keep humanity together. Some religions are better than others. Hindu’s, Buddhism, Christians, Jews, Muslims…whatever.  People from the beginning of history KNEW and hoped there was reason we were here, and looked up to the sky, and imagined…Gods. From Uranus and Gaia to Zeus, to Mother Mary and God almighty, people have given that ‘force’ they feel every day a name. Each nation thought up its own.

Religion gives hope. And survival. And…yes…love.

All leaders of faith, like popes, have committed horrendous crimes in the name of their religion. Religions are…institutions of men. Based on the universal feelings of “Something is up there!”  And there are lessons to learn in all of them.

And then they fight about whose God is the best.

 Historically it has always been the way. It’s just human nature. The Jews were the chosen ones, then the Christians, then the Muslims, and on the other side of the planet other deities…usually following ones most in tune with whatever that “God” really is.

And they taught the innocent babies their religions, and the babies learn the religion of their parents when young. The Jews, Christians, and the Muslims? Yeah…a problem.

As I walked away from the house of my neighbor, I thought to myself “Be thankful…that you were NOT born into those parents.” Holy moly. My parents went to church…I went to Sunday school, but they never thought their children were ‘sinners.’

I was…lucky. But they followed …the lessons from the Bible…”Thou shall not steal.”

(Something DOGE is having a time dealing with right now.)

Kindness, love, understanding, do not kill, honor your father and mother, don’t desire your neighbors wife or be jealous of rich people. Treat all as you would have them treat you…forgive if you can…good Christian values…and worth fighting for really.

So, my motherly instinct got me. I won’t tell you what my rant was when I walked out that door, except I did not call them names. But I was mad. I had enough hypocrisy.

 I might forgive my neighbors, as just not ever having read more than one book, but can I forgive myself?

Probably not. But you know what? Whoever made this universe already has.

All babies and children are sinners? Uh…not in my heart…

Demon mother I am. Attack the babies? I will not be silent.

Blame it on God…any ‘mother’ in the natural universe would die to protect her child.

If that makes me a sinner? Then count me a big one. I will live among the many sinners in the animal world. The birds, the elephants, the dolphins, the crocs, all of them. I will remain among the squirrels.

The people world? Well, that’s another blog. I might have to read the Bible again ONE MORE TIME. After all, I’m sure Jesus would suggest it. Obviously I missed something.

April 27, 2025 - Posted by Joyanna Adams | Uncategorized