Joyanna Adams

Nobody's Opinion

It’s Saturday Night!

I love this song, and it brings back memories of the many years I played in bands…I miss it sometimes.

Enjoy!

April 27, 2024 Posted by | Uncategorized | Leave a comment

Is it a bird? A plane? A…Drone?!

Nobody Wins

“Look! Up Above! It’s a bird! It’s a plane! It’s a…drone?”

That was the shock of the crowd at the first Tea Party gathering in St. Louis, in 2009. It was the first time I had EVER seen a drone…most of the people gathered near the Arch that day, were there to protest OBAMACARE. Yeah, we were PISSED.

I was surrounded by Vets that day, all of us sitting in the sun listening to Dana Loesch make her debut as a conservative pundit. All of the men, looked up in the sky with dead-panned bloodless look on their faces…as if even they couldn’t believe it. And we all knew the implication of It. It flew close over the whole crowd that day, several times, and everyone had the same thought in their heads: Well, I’ve just been photographed by Obama’s military orders. I’m pretty much “FUBARED.”

Of course, NO mention of that drone appeared anywhere.

“This is not the drone you’ve been looking for.”  Everyone in government and on the news denied it was there: You did NOT see it.  

In the arguments in the Supreme Court today, on what President are allowed to do, (It’s okay to start wars without Congress now, that’s okay.) the questions came up that if you curtailed one Presidetnt from making decisions, the future would be very scary.

But if you think the President could NOT order a drone to kill Americans, remember Presidents CAN and have ordered death to many Americans.

Waco. Ruby Ridge…and so many other examples.

The headline on the federalist shouted out this today:

Biden DOJ Says Droning American Citizens Is Totally Fine Because Obama’s DOJ Said So

Biden DOJ Says Droning U.S. Citizens Is Fine Because Obama’s DOJ Said So (thefederalist.com)

Really? Says who? Since when is it legal to fly drones over America?  Half the time, I can’t even get people to look up and see all the chemtrails. NOBODY looks up much anymore.

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In other words, Obama could not be charged for his use of more than 560 drone strikes that murdered somewhere between 384 and 807 civilians because his own DOJ cleared him to do so.

Obama’s Attorney General Eric Holder admitted to Congress that at least four Americans were murdered by the drone strikes. Three of the four were “not specifically targeted.”

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Well, conspiracy campers, I’m here to tell you, the police are surveilling us all now: With drones.

Police in around thirty states have implemented laws allowing them to use drones for surveillance, making it easier, safer, more efficient and faster to carry out their tasks1Law enforcement drones are unmanned aerial vehicles (UAVs) equipped with cameras, sensors, and other payloads to gather intelligence, detect threats, and respond to emergencies2Drones can be flown into a building and conduct room searches remotely with no potential harm to the officer3However, drones cannot be used to monitor any political protest, march, demonstration, or other assembly protected by the First amendment.

Go ahead. Laugh. Ha ha ha…Yeah, they are protecting that first amendment aren’t they?

How many emergencies have these drones help us all out on? And while the Tea party was a quiet bunch of patriots in 2009, we now have protests on all the college campuses shouting, ‘Death to the Jews!’

Did you see a drone above THEIR heads?

Yeah, me neither.

Elon Musk has stated that the next wars will be fought by drones. He would know.

And since our President can legally ordered them to ‘fight’ Americans, just wait until the next ‘protest’ of patriots take to the streets.

Something tells me Kyle Rittenhouse is going to need a bigger gun.

Nobody Wins when our government has the permission to use Drones on Americans. Right now, they haven’t killed anyone here yet…

But…don’t you wonder if that’s true?

Yeah, me too.

April 26, 2024 Posted by | Uncategorized | , | Leave a comment

Jews: Muslims….COME ON!

Nobody’s Knows–This is just a rant. Take it as one.

Today, in America, it was the American kids in the colleges out protesting America: Calling for Death to the Jews state. Netanyahu put out a strong statement against the American protestors. Biden, did not. He was more concerned about the Muslims.

So, what would Moses say, if he were alive, about all of this? This fight between the Jews and the Muslims has been going on since Moses’ people came out of Egypt. Slaves–who suffered greatly…and then, they wandered the desert, and Moses bought them the ten commandments, and the laws of Western civilization was created.

They’ve worked for thousands of years those laws, but what happened? Kings can be bought. The Jews in Jerusalem, well…they got smart, got rich bankers, and made pacts with the Roman Kings and so Jesus stood up to them.

Bad idea. He was crucified for it.

People are people. The tribe of the Jews, and the tribe of the Muslims came out of the same loin: Abraham. Ishmael…and Isaac. Ishmael was 14 years older than Isaac.

Different mothers, but you know families. Shit happens.

Not everybody gets along. So–Jesus came along and protested the Jewish bankers, who were friends with the Romans, and then Mohammed made his OWN religion, and so now, thousands of years later, we come to this FUBAR in the middle East.

Thousands of years of hatred between the Christians, Jews, and Muslims. All three bring up their children in the religion of the tribe. You can’t solve this.

But here’s the problem. The Jews, always seem to come out on top. Genetics surely played a role, but so did the preservation of the tribe. Nobody holds more Nobel prizes in all subjects that have benefited mankind more than the Jews.

They do have the highest IQ’s, which means they stick together and get very rich.

But, let’s not forget the vast wealth of the Saudi’s. They make the Jews look poor.

So jealousy of the Jews, and the hatred is madness. But hey, the world is often a mad place, in fact, it will be always a mad place. Count on it.

So, because of a lot of ego maniac leaders after WWI, Hitler made the Jews the scapegoat of the world, then slaughtered millions of them, along with many others who were not perfect Germans, and they never show this horror to the Muslims OR the American children.

They gave the Jews a small little sliver of land, and the Muslims are taught from birth to hate the Jews and they should be killed from the time they are born.

You would THINK they would just let them live and worship on that little piece of land, but no, Mohammed was a violent man, and it was his word in the Koran, that, much like Hitler, only Muslims had the love of God.

Notice: MY God is better than YOUR God. Sounds like a “Mine is bigger than yours” compensation problem. We see this in all our big elites who try to outdoor each other with their mansions and yachts.

Stupid.

So, why are the rich kids in America, who go to colleges that their parents fork out up to $100,000 a year to attend, why are they protecting the Jews going to war AFTER being attacked?

Our universities, since the 60’s were infiltrated by Marxists, and the rich like to feel better by taking up some sort of cause…even the Jews of America, which there are more Jews here than in Israel.

Guilt is a powerful…”I feel good about myself, see how wonderful I am.” drug.

Elon Musk, recently came out with a tweet saying the rich Jews in America have kept silent on the treatment of the Jews in the middle East.

It was the truth. He is right. Dead right about that. These Jews are very rich, and want their kids to MARRY rich, and go to all the elite schools. They donate millions to these Marxist colleges.

So, one might ask: How in the world did the Jewish rich parents become so ….stupid? Most of them I read, do not even consider themselves orthodox Jews.

I ask the question not long ago…why did they just WALK into the gas chambers?

What is it about human nature that lets one’s sense of being alive, just give up his life to an enemy?

Have we all been so brainwashed by years of propaganda in our American schools that now some German like Klaus, a scary man of pure ‘benevolent” evil BS, can come in and make the whole world feel guilty for just being alive?

And who bought ALL these Muslims into America in the first place…to be educated, even be elected to our halls of Congress.

It’s a joke.

The great laws that Moses taught, to keep a civilization intact, to prosper, to forge new inventions and tribes of goodness…of love.

Our own universities, and President are on the side of evil.

Christianly reformed…progressed…Islam…did not. But they did one very smart thing:

They gave the men FOUR wives instead of one, and their numbers will someday be more than everybody else’s.

Very smart.

It’s a touchy subject. In the meantime, somebody is making a lot of money off these wars…

And we all know who.

Will the protestors be arrested? Will they grow in numbers because the kids are so stupid that they think the Muslims are innocent?

Nobody innocent.

Nobody’s perfect.

Not any of us.

Elon Musk went to Israel and prayed for the poor people who had been kidnapped.

That was something we should all be doing.

Praying for peace. Praying for the fighting in the Middle East to end.

Or else, the next Holocaust will happen again.

April 24, 2024 Posted by | Uncategorized | Leave a comment

WEF? Get Ready for Brain Monitors

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Gee, I was upset when they made all the wrist monitors to use to track all our vitals while running or exercising. COOL huh?

Untill you figures out they were collecting all your data.

Not to mention : Alexis. Right.

High tech collects data. It’s what it does. It’s what A.I. is doing. In face, Elon Musk is right to warn the world…about A.I. and the people who program it.

Watch this video and wonder…will this be our future?

April 21, 2024 Posted by | Uncategorized | 1 Comment

A Garden of Evil and Good

Nobody Remembers

It’s a Saturday night. Here in St. Louis, it’s still cold. Spring is everywhere, baby birds are being born, rabbits are nibbling on the grass, the moon now shines beneath the newly baby born green leaves.

And I had two thoughts going through my head tonight: The smell of my grandmother’s gardenia bushes in the backyard of her Naples, Florida home when I was a kid, and the Jews, being lined up near their own graves, and being shot to fall into the pits.

That image is forever etched in my brain. None of them fought back.

The joy of life, the horror of life, existing right next to each other.

Is it any wonder man reached out for a God?

While comparing the miracle of smell, to the horror of murder, is it any wonder that each of us wants to remember our favorite smell? Pumpkin pies cooking in the oven at Christmas. The smell of fresh air after a summer storm. The smell of a baby’s little hand, as you kiss it while it’s grasped around your big finger. Men remembering their lover’s perfume. Women remembering the smell of their husband’s sweat in bed,

The smell of your lover’s sex on your hands.

When I was older, I went to see my grandmothers’s house. Someone had bought it. I stood in front of it, and SWORE that I smelt that gardenia bush in the backyard.

It was just my brain fooling me. It had been long gone.

They say dogs can smell cancer. I believe that’s true.

And for the last week, as I watched so many really stupid people lining up behind our demented President, and clapping with smiles on their faces, I thought of how the Jews did NOT fight back as they stood to be shot.

Why? Wouldn’t it be better to turn around and fight? Even if you KNEW you would be killed? Better to fight than to give in like sheep? Why did they just go to die? Was life that hard and they wanted to die? Or was it something else?

I’ve never smelt a corpse rotting, and I hope I never do, but right now, bodies of men and woman are rotting on the grounds in the Middle East.

Where gardenias do not grow.

J.R. Tolkien, wrote the Hobbit series to ease his own pain from the Wars being fought.

A masterpiece of Good vs Evil. Always the story line.

If I were rich, I’d sent a gardenia bush to every mother who had lost a child.

For life is filled with great joy, and great sorrow.

It’s was Elon Musk’s DAY today: April 10. Elon is fighting back against the evil of many.

And that’s because he knows evil from childhood. His mother, suffered much herself…They took that pain and fought back.

And today, I wish I could just, for one time, smell my grandmothers’ gardenia bush, where hundreds of flowers bloomed every summer to delight me…with the great love of my grandmother standing beside me, sharing the smells, the moment. Priceless.

Good vs Evil? Its always the same.

A great man, who fought evil, Mahatma Gandhi said this:

When I despair, I remember that all through history the way of truth and love has always won. There have been tyrants and murderers and for a time they seem invincible, but in the end, they always fall… think of it, always.

Let’s hope…he’s right.

Will the evil we see controlling us all, on the global march to death…will truth win in the end.

Gardenia’s or corpses?

Nobody Knows…but if history repeats itself: both.

April 20, 2024 Posted by | Uncategorized | , , , , | Leave a comment

Sex Card. Race Card: All nonsense.

Sex.

The politicians use it as a weapon, every single time, and it’s mostly the democrats, the biggest sinners when it comes to ‘sex’ that use it to

The trial that is going on right now, accusing President Trump of paying ‘hush’ money to Stormy Daniels “(Come on, who has a name like that, but your local stripper sex club girls?) is completely criminal.

Does ANYBODY remember how much money President Bill Clinton paid out to all the woman who claimed they had been raped or sexually molested by him? Quite a bit…in fact thousands. Not to mention, Bill has never been prosecuted for having sex with underage women on Epstein’s Island. Do you ever see them dragging Bill into court? No never.

Why is that?

The Clintons still retain power. As do the Obamas. They’ve taken over and control now, most of our institutions.

So..once again…SEX.

You would think by now, people would get tired of using sex as a political game to get rid of opponents.

Stormy Daniels?

REALLY?

And that lawyer?

Come on, they just want to put him in jail, and destroy him

Historically speaking, it’s been the biggest card of political destruction, and they play it every single time.

I don’t know about you, but whoever delt it, ….you know the rest.

We pray, for President Trump….at least I do.

The real question is: when exaclty are the slimy republicans going to fight back?

Right now, the only ones sticking up for Trump are Vivek and Elon.

So, where are you House of Cards?

April 15, 2024 Posted by | Uncategorized | Leave a comment

Speaker Johnson Sides With Democrats?

Nobody’s Opinion

I remember when the American people, wanted Jim Jordon for the speaker. We all thought that he would be the closest to us all. At least the Trump supporters did.

And then, as usual, at the last minute,..wait! We have someone better!

Mike Johnson. A smooth talker. I must admit, I thought he was too smooth, and Jim, who knows how Congress works, decided to stick to what he does best: point out all the criminals.

So, Johnson did the good old routine of pretending to be religious, moral, yada yada, and then once in, he went straight to the globalist agenda.

Are we surprised? Does the moon circle the earth? Does Kim Kardashian change her looks every other month, and get new buttplants? Will the American people vote for JFK even though the poor man has trouble speaking? Would they perfer a Hollywood celebrity?

Well, I’d prefer Elon Musk, but that’s me. I’m praying…for D.C. to implode on it’s own wieght. You know…all that money…all those parties,…somebody from China will just come in and sink it?

Here Rand Paul explains that not only did he NOT protect our 4th amendment rights, which by the way, has been long gone anyway thanks to Obama, Bush, and Clinton, he is also backing Ukraine.

I think most Americans right now would not care if the whole lot of them, save a handfull of patriots, would just disappear.

Term limits would help, but that’s not going to happen.

Congress, in my Nobody Opinion, is a oligarthy of worthless, clueless, and hopeless theives, eating at the public buffet, and charging it to the average worker who can hardly stand up anymore.

But hey! At least I didn’t call them the Parliment of Whores.

Only a few, like Rand Paul, take the job seriously, Most of them are all about power and money.

In 1979, Isaac Asimov wrote this fact:

“From all levels of government, federal , state, and local, Americans get 150,000 new laws and 2 million new regulations every year.”

Just imagine how these figures have grown? I don’t want to know, I might get so mad I’d write a few letters to Congress and burn them in my backyard, and I would be arrested for the smoke.

And real question is: If we are not a republic anymore, then what are we really?

Anybody?

April 14, 2024 Posted by | Uncategorized | Leave a comment

Nobody Reads: Disparate Impact Thinking is Destroying our Civilization.

Nobody Reads

Every so often I get a short news flyer from Hillsdale College. This week’s issue was written by Heather MacDonald, and titled “Disparate Impact Thinking Is Destroying Our Civilization.”

She boldly addresses what the ‘diversity’ orders infiltrating ALL our institutions is doing.

So, I will reprint a few of her comments here:

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“Many thought that STEM, the fields of science, technology, engineering, and mathematics would escape the diversity sledgehammer. They were wrong. The American Medical Association today insists that medicine is characterized by white supremacy. Nature magazine declares that science manifests on of “humankind’s worst excesses” racism. The Smithsonian Institution announces that “emphasis on the scientific method” and an interest in “cause an effect relationship” are part of totalitarian whiteness.”

“The American Mathematical Association declares math to be racist.”

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The American Bar Association, using its influence, to make sure the tests scores are lowered so as to allow the blacks to get in.

We have watched stores all across the country close down, and let the looters take whatever they want because of the ‘unfairness’ to blacks.

“Only three percent of black high school seniors were college ready in 2023”

And this woke culture will surely destroy what has been given to the world, by the white cultures. China will certainly lead the future if this keeps up. They don’t have this silliness.

We all know this. Even the blacks know this.

How did we get there? The progressives, something Hillary Clinton has claimed to proudly be.

LBJ…once said he would give welfare to the blacks and they would vote democratic forever. He was right. Little did they figure out, that LBJ was handing them a horrible education, and a slave sentence. But they voted for democrats every time.

Biden is doing the same now for illegal immigrants. Handing out everything they need to survive. Except, they too will become slaves. But they think the illegals will vote (and many states will give them that right) for democrats.

It’s how they figure they will stay in power forever.

But…and they are working on this—they must destroy the WHITE population to get this NEW slavocracy trenched in for all time, rules by a few white elites at the top.

Heather also said “As long as racism remains the only allowable explanation for racial disparities, the left wins, and our civilization will continue to crumble.”

Elon Musk even called DEI, Evil. And it’s not just lawyers, doctors, education, it’s also..well, the airlines.

April 13, 2024 Posted by | Uncategorized | | Leave a comment

Nobody Flashes: A Joyous Day for Freedom!

When these two giant freedom fighters get together, it’s almost breathtaking to know that these men, these two incredible men, got together on Thurday to promoter Free markets and FREEDOM!

Javier Milei shouted “Long live freedom, damn it!
To which Musk added, “To an exciting and inspiring future!”

Javier admits to using X for 2 to 3 hours a day, something that will be noticed I’m sure in Brazil.

In any event, let’s hope more leaders join the fight…because we need all we can get…in the meantime, I thought this was truly a day to remember. Watch out world. These guys alone are powerful.

Joined in the fight? Well, Musk knows better than anyone in the world, how to launch big rockets.

Now, he has MORE energy…and we can all be excited about the pair meeting, because Argintina has a LOT of lithium…needed for electric car batteries.

Let’s cheer them on, and MAYBE…the inspiration for free markets and freedom will start to blaze, because of these two freedom fighters. I don’t know about you, but I’m happy.

Glorious day, for us all.

April 12, 2024 Posted by | Uncategorized | Leave a comment

Are Demorats Going to Use Abortion to WIN the Election?

Nobody Knows

Of course they are. They have taken President Trump off ALL the medica, tried to destroy his empire, take his properties…to KEEP him from making video’s like this. (see below)

Yes, destroy the ecomomy and all those single young women who have to choose between getting a new cellphone or getting a abortion will run out and vote to have the right TO that abortion.

Even young married couples can’t aford a home, or new cars, let alone a kid. No, they just get dogs. And dress them up in clothes to put on Youtube.

It’s sad. But kids? How much does it cost to raise a child until he’s 18? With this economy?

They won’t tell you, but even our uneducated kids don’t want the expense.

So, destroying the economy is one way to get re- elected. Are you pregnant? Biden tells you, he will make SURE your life isn’t destroyed by trying to scrape by forever, and you can’t find Trump’s rebuttel anywhere on the TV cable shows.

Besides, he’s in court every other day. We are being run by communists.

I’ve been saying for so long now: They destroyed marriage, the chruch, and made sure all the black single mothers got PAID to reproduce, and the white young girls can’t find husbands, and the cost of raising a child NOW in THIS HORRIBLE economy?

To me it looks a lot like a planned white genocide.

And now they are bringing in millions of illegals to make up for the dying white race.

It’s pretty obvious, although, they won’t talk it.

So, in the word’s of some fool democrat who was advising Bill Clinton:

“Its the economy stupid.”

That’s the abortion issue. Destroy the economy, and the women will vote for democrats.

And the republicans BETTER start talking about it, or THEY will lose thier seats.

President Trump…God bless him…if only he could get more exposure like he did in 2016. He just keep trying for us all.

Now, they control all the media but X and a few stations on Pluto.

God help us. LOTS of babies are going to be killed.

Please, listen to reason, and tell your daughters that THEY are being conned.

April 10, 2024 Posted by | Uncategorized | Leave a comment

Nobody’s Fool: Jordan Peterson explains ADHD

This is a great insite into just how many people have ADHD.

I was telling a friend today, that when I was young, my mother bought this toy plastic clock that taught you how to tell time. I was about five. I HATED that toy. She made me sit every day to learn it, but I knew that this was bascially a CONTROL lesson, and there was no way that I was going to have MY time controlled by any clock. And I knew she would use it to do just that.

I did not actually learn how to read a watch until I was a freshman in college. As Jordan says, they controlled all of us through bells. You didn’t have to know a thing about time except you couldn’t WAIT to get out of the school.

Years late, my doctor put me on Ritalin he said to “Help me with all my racing thoughts.” It was a form of speed…and I took it for years, in fact, when I got pregant I asked my doctor what the drug would do to the baby, and he said, “We don’t know.”

My son was born at 6 months premature, and while he was in his incubator at Children’s Hospital downtown, I asked him why my baby was shaking?

He said, “We think he’s coming off the Ritalin.”

The next day, I went cold turkey. Never took another pill.

My son has been diagnosed with ADHD.

And now he’s on some kinds of drugs.

The thing is: It’s not normal for kids to sit in a classroom all day and ‘obey’ and ‘memorzie’ when they want to be playing.

Elon Musk has started schools that I wish every child could go to. Google his schools, you will wish your kids could go there too.

Yes, once again, Jordan Peterson’s great truth comes out to help us all.

Even if it’s too late for me, it’s not for you or your kids.

Don’t let them put your kids on drugs to ‘calm’ them down.

Let the kids, be kids.

April 9, 2024 Posted by | Uncategorized | , , , , | 1 Comment

Nobody’s Fool: Elon wins the Nobody’s Fool Award AGAIN.

Everybody should watch this. If you were bored in school, like I was, then Elon does a great job of explaining just how stupid our eductional system is right now.

The most relanvent point was they make you take subjects that you may hate know you will NEVER use, and they don’t tell you what the purpose is of learning what you are memorizing is.

It’s boring. It’s not fun. And its meaningless. Basically, most schools are just babysitters, and the good teachers are hard to find.

Anyway, it’s a great video...don’t miss it.

April 8, 2024 Posted by | Uncategorized | Leave a comment

Play-Do Dred Locks!

Nobody Wonders

A new TV commercial came on tonight that I had never seen: Play-Doh.

Now, the very young girls can start designing dred-locks as soon as they can!

With all different colors!

Of course, they will say the white girls will want them too..look, it’s a white girl with dred-locks.

We’ve all seen the new fashion on everybody from old white ladies to black women with died purple and red dred-locks! But what if some day, you don’t have this fashion, but keep your normal hair, will you be ostracized by the masses?

Mmmmmm.

Since everybody knows that the best lessons that stick with you is when your brain is being formed between birth and 5, I can just imagine in the future…

Will the White blond still be the desired hair color? Or will it be considered, racist?

Something tell me, Play-Doh has a hit!

And the market for hair die will triple.

Nobody Wonders…will anybody in the future have the REAL color of their hair?

Nobody Knows.

April 7, 2024 Posted by | Uncategorized | | Leave a comment

True Love Stories

Nobody Remembers….

Do you remember the first true love of your life? I was thinking about this today…I remember a year before my mother died, she made a request to me…would I find out where Herbert was? He was her first true love. Her first husband. All those years with my father 40 years of marriage, and she never mentioned him once. Although, I did see some old photographs of him in his uniform with a lovely signature: To Janet, my love always, it said.

They were married…very young, and then the war broke out.

My father had been dead for over 40 years, so I was struck by the news, and the desperation she was in to find him. She never told me about him, but I could tell, she had loved him more than my father just by the way she mentioned his name. Like the old lady on the Titanic, Rose, she remembered, and never told a soul, until me, her daughter, until that night.

As she laid in her bed, wearing her flowered printed nightgown, holding her cup of ice, she told me the story of how Herbert had been injured in the Pacific where he served on a ship in WWII.  He was in a hospital bed in California, and she was only 18, but she booked a train ticket to travel from St. Louis to San Franscisco where he was laid up. She told me how frightened she was. She was just a bit of a girl, only 4 feet 5 inches. Some of the soldiers were rather…rude.

It must have been scary for a young woman to travel all that way alone by train, but women have done much the same in history. John Quincy Adams wife, Louisa, traveled alone through Russia to get to her beloved during the winter, in a carriage. That’s a LONG trip, and back then for an English woman traveling alone, very dangerous.

Love will make you do that.

When she got there, a priest came out and took her aside before she went into the room.

“Whatever you do” he told her. “Do NOT give him a divorce. Don’t do it. He will push you, but don’t do it.” Mom told me the priest begged her not to do it.  “No matter what he says.” The Priest was firm. And adamant.

When she went inside, her beloved told her he wanted a divorce, go home. Never see him again. He must have been very cruel.

She cried and cried, and refused to leave, but what she didn’t know, is that HER father had somehow called Herbert and convinced him to force her to divorce him. For some reason, maybe because of whatever injury he suffered, he thought, because he loved her, that it was the best thing to do for her.

My grandfather wanted MY mother to take care of him in his old age. At least that’s what my mother told me when she was 77. He was the real cause of the breakup.

So, to my surprise, I found Herbert. He had a farm in Southern Missouri, with a wife and seven grown children. He was still alive!

I left a message, but he never called back. I could tell, my mother was pretty sad about it.

True love. Sad ending. Most people have it as their first love.

In my case, I had a simple crush on a Priest’s son named Christopher in grade school. We were both five. In fact, the middle name I gave my only son was Christopher.

He hates it. (LOL)

We held hands in the auditorium during Christmas movies. He gave me a ring. I would look at it for hours. Back then, the teachers thought it was cute. Now? It would be considered some sort of crime. We sat there happy as little turtle doves. I felt so special, and surely God was blessing me. It was wonderful.

My husband that I am married to now, his first true love was his first wife. He joined the Navy Seals and when he was in Panama, she got together (had sex) with his best friend in Virginia Beach. This was when she had a small baby daughter in the next room by her husband who was away.

The devastation he felt was unbearable. His best friend, the wife he loved.

How did I know she was his first love? A wife knows these things. She was beautiful, young, and when we ran into her one day by chance. He fell completely apart.

You don’t do that…if you’re not still in love.

I was older, and got married, he used to come hear me sing in a hotel. He was looking for a way to take his daughter away from her, and I had a son, a house to live in, and the judge looked at me, gave us custody of his daughter, and said to ME…”Good luck.”

But the judge knew…he had seen this before.

We have been married now for 31 years.

But was he my true love? I ask myself now.

Was it mostly sex?

And what does true love feel like?

How do you know?

I will tell you…when you feel true love, you see their face everywhere. You think of them every minute…you cry, you laugh, and the most joyful part of your day is when you are near them. You hope, you plan, your dream…You only want the best for them, and if that would mean giving them up, then so be it. Your heart aches when you are not with them.

Herbert must have loved my mother very much. BUT he should have NEVER listened to her father. He should have told him to go to hell.

Of course, I would not be alive to write this, so..there’s that. But I would not have been born either, and I am now, only finding my real true love not too much younger than my mother when she remembered her husband.

And I met him online.

Life is cruel, but…

Sometimes, true love, means loving yourself enough to feel you are worthy of the true love that comes to you.

Grab hold of it with all your heart. Because…you only live once, and true love only comes once.

Am I right?

I hope you have experienced true love in your life, and even if my true love, never wants me, does a Herbert someday, at least I can say, I experienced the thrill of what it feels like to REALLY love so deeply another human being. And we did nothing wrong.

It’s written in the stars…some things are just meant to be.

Love is the answer. If you find it, grab it…and never let it go.

Or you’ll end up like my mother, lying in your bed late at night, with sadness you will carry to your grave.

By the way, I’ve told my husband, and he thinks…it’s just a silly…true love?

To him, it’s like a cold. It will pass.

(Now, If only I had a diamond necklace…I really don’t think I would throw it away. LOL)

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