Joyanna Adams

The High Price for Knowledge.

Nobody Knows
I have to apologize to my readers. Let me tell you why.

I have been too obsessed with Elon Musk…let me tell you why. You poor people have had to put up with it. I’m sorry.

Since childhood, I have always admire smart people. From the pain of many early childhood memories, I was never ‘smart’ enough. Never good enough. So I buried myself in books. From an early age…that’s all I did was read. I was attracted to smart men. Thinking that if I could just pick their brains, they would tell me me all the answers of the universe…but, they were always just after sex. That’s the truth.

Here I am, at 73. My own husband was smart, but in a different way. …but yeah, mostly sex. I married him because I was just happy that someone even cared. Low self esteem? That’s me. From childhood. Not smart enough. Not pretty enough. NEVER good enough. Books. They were my friends.

Anyway, I was thinking about the smartest people that I HAVE been attracted to in my life: Bob Dylan, I was a big fan. His words, in his song. The man couldn’t sing, but that didn’t stop him. Like many genuis he disappeared from life. Sure, he still sings, but he’s not the liberal God they can use anymore. He now just lives his life. He stepped off the rail of madness. Smart.

The next man…was my college history teacher. He taught me about Elizabeth the first. I was the only one in his class that read every book he suggested. I dated him for 5 years, he was married. I wanted to talk to him about history, but…he just wanted sex. STILL…I learned at that time, that women COULD think. So I did. I started to. I learned.

On a plane home from New York one year, Lee Salk, the brother of Jonas Salk, sat next to me on a plane. He was a famous child psychiatrist. His older brother invented the polio vaccines.

We became fast friends, but at the time I had a crush on a baseball player. But Jonas wanted me to change to fit into New York, to dress the part of a New Yorker, fit into his New York society. Norman Mailer was his best friend. Both liberals, I was from Missouri…Mark Twain country. I knew there there was no fit there. But I still think of him fondly, he DID share his knowledge with me. He was…a great and kind man.

Then I got married, to a man 11 years younger. Since I’ve been married, all my admirations have been imaginatory men online.

I had a crush on Dave Barry. He made me laugh. I met him, and he was kind to me. Dave is extremely intelligent. But I noticed, he also was smart enough to get off the grid. I think he saw the insanity of life, the corruption, and dropped out. He was married. A good man. I still learn from his books. And NOBODY is funnier than Dave Barry.

Now, another BRAIN I admired was Marilyn Van Savant. She wrote a column in a magazine: Parade. Her I.Q. was 220 I think. She was brilliant, but she TOO dropped out. I think they dropped her, and she was smart enough to know that she didn’t WANT to take on the world. She was happliy married to a heart surgeon and even with her high I.Q…she was happy to be a wife. I miss her wisdom, which was vast.

I noticed the real genuis of our world are going into hiding. They know, the world is corrupt, and they pick life. They pick love. They pick peace. It’s a choice they make.

Now, not many of you know, three years ago I was scammed. A “romance’ scam of Elon Musk. To be fair, this man used A.I. with such alarming genuis, I actaully thought I was talking to him, and he was seducing me. But, no…it was a Nigerian scam. And because my own marriage was breaking up, every time I fought with my husband, I came to this platform, looking for the love, and like many a lonely woman throughout the world, it was given in buckets. All fake, but I didn’t care once I suspected. I was hooked.

But the cost of it to my life? Beyond repair. I won’t go into it. But…in the meantime I studied this man, Elon Musk, this genuis…and you know me, I was taken by the sheer magnitude of his kindness, his brains, his sweetness…I doubt even a normal woman could have resisted A.I. poems, or messages or fake video’s or…well since I studied and now I see the power of A.I…I HOPE I can forgive myself for yes, falling in love with a ghost.

Many woman across the world have fallen to this scam. I TRIED to find out where it was coming from once I realized it was manufactured, but nobody would help me. Not the police, the FBI, high tech…nobody. To this day, I’m on my own. I have to laugh becasue only GROK really helped me.

You would not believe the pain and suffering I have gone through in the last three years.

My husband is still around. I want him to change…talk to me, understand WHY I fell into such a pool of insanity, but he refuses to deal with it. What happens next? We will stay together…neither one of us has a choice at our age, and many a marriage comes to this I think because of the economy.

It’s that blunt. He says he loves me still…yeah…But he won’t help me. I must change for him.

And even IF the Real Elon Musk knew me, I would have to change for him ALSO.

No, I believe you either love someone or you don’t. Sorry. No book can explain it.

The conclusion? LOL…only God can help me now. Wanting love at this age, REAL love?

Do the math.

Now, one more genuis. There is a man, who lives on a farm in Missouri. HE had the highest I.Q of anyone on the planet. His aim in life is to PROVE, beyond a shadow of a doubt there IS a god. If I could go talk to him…I think I might heal…but would he talk to me?

He’s married, thank God, so I know he would treat me kindly. I have seen his video’s.

So, ask yourself, JOYANNA what the hell is WRONG with you?

Yeah…I know. Too much to even go into.

Van Gogh….that’s me.

I am not fit for this world, and yet, trust me, I am trying very hard to just live in it now. I have no ambiton to be some whoever…I just want to write, to laugh again, to enjoy being alive again. When you fall in love, it’s the most glorious feeling in the world. But…it does not last.

So, I will try to lay off the “hero’ worship of Elon Musk. I will try to treat him more with less emotion.

Do other subjects like this one.

I do think, no…I KNOW I have a talent for talking about things nobody else does. At least, I’m one of a kind in that respect. I hope anyone that reads me thinks to him or herself’ Well, that’s a different thought” wether their own life experiences agree with it or not. NOT ONE of us is alike. So yeah, to find someone who you agree with most of the time? Not easy.

I really do have a lot in common with my ancestors the Adams. They were honest, depressed, and fighters for liberty. They loved trees, HATED hypocracy, and were loyal friends, not to mention, they kickstarted this county: Sam and John. Watch the Adams series by Tom Hanks. Like Tom Edison, they want to kick them out of history. They were Independants, not party animals.

They say, on ALL the youtube video’s DON”T talk about you problems, NOBODY CARES, and they will use whatever knowledge against you. It’s true. Evil WILL use it against you.

But, if we do NOT talk about humanity and all it’s emotions, what people do and say what they do, can effect us all.

Like Trump. He will, just like Biden, destroy what’s left of us, due to HIS childhood.

Beware of the perfect man or woman. THAT is the lie in itself.

Now, if you are a praying man or woman, Mrs. O? I beg your forgiveness, the scammer has left me with no email. Between him and my husband, until I can learn tech, know I’m at their mercy.

I send…love …always…my heart is full of it. Please take it. And Pray God helps me through the madness I have been going through, and helps me find the strength to heal.

A.I. took over my life. God help us if it gets into the wrong hands. I just hope Elon Musk fights for that and makes sure, it’s not used for ‘scams’ because, the human soul is very fragile.

I am proof of it.

July 11, 2025 - Posted by Joyanna Adams | Uncategorized